To have a Family

Things that kept coming into my mind is actually to get a husband and have a child recently.

Marriage has never be my priority and especially I am not grown in a family which full with loves and caring compared to others. 

However, all of a sudden, this thing hits my mind!

To become a mother, 

To have lesser gap between myself with my kids,

To become a wife,

Be the best friend who can talk nonsense and whatever shit happened daily. 

I have been asking so much of why if getting married by this age. 

Should have at least after 25 years old. 

But I think I am getting tired of the life where you need to pick yourself up when you have no one to hug tight, to lie on..

I totally understand that we are all individual by the end of day. 

The warm feeling of getting a blessed family just hit my mind. 

Be honest that I really admire a lot when I can see the interaction between my friend's family. 

I envy, a lot. 

I'm grateful on whatever love it is given by my friends, my colleagues, they made me feel blessed to have them in my life for the absence of something. 

Thank you for taking me so serious when there is no one does. 

I feel my self value when I am with you guys. 

Thanks to the guy who made me feel warm of having you. 

I believe there is some seeds between us. 

It just depends whether I chose to be patient or just let it go! 

Be happy as who you want to be, this is how I met someone who loves me and treat me like their family.